Beginning with a Crush

 

I am kept awake by thoughts of you,

When I finally succumb

I am tortured

Dreams are filled with your touch, your eyes.

Moments we are near I am but a spectre

Your eyes see through me

My words fall to a vacant stare

How is it you are on my mind constantly yet I am never on yours?

I am resolved,

I cannot be a shadow in your world any longer

I will act, I must.

Need drives me

I ask,

The weight lifts

The answer comes

My heart soars, my eternal smile erupts

Your words echo my thoughts.

I am yours.

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Then Comes a Kiss

 

Soft and warm,

Red and luscious,

A lock of velvet.

They near each other

My heart pounds, hands shake,

A moment has never caused

Such turmoil within me,

My hands move of their own volition, as if confused.

We near each other

Time crawls forward,

The moment lasting forever

Excitement and terror writhes through me.

Finally,

We touch.

The pounding ceases, baffled hands become calm,

The lock has found the key

Everything is right.

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Her

 

The veil of darkness is slowly pulled back

Dawn has arrived.

Warmth, comfort and happiness surround me.

These sheets hold me forever

Just as the warm body next to me does.

We are one.

I, no longer a shadow.

A perfect moment

I relish it, savouring each second

Lids close as sleep calls to me yet again

Darkness returns,

Beautiful dreams await.

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 A Perfect Pair

 

I look at her,

Happiness overtakes her,

I can’t look away.

My stare attempts to see

Everything, remember everything.

Life made simple with her

Life is for her, without I would be nothing

A shadow.

I need her

Desire her

She alone is my perfection.

Life is her.

I hold her close,

I love her.

Never will I leave her.

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 The Next Step

 

I open the door, already a smile on my face,

I am home.

I see her, a smile spreads over her

Tears come to her eyes

I bring her close, hold her tight.

We breathe each other in

I can feel the weight in my pocket

I kneel and look up, her beautiful eyes stare back.

A breath

She breaks,

Death leaves her lips.

Our world is shattered.

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Gone, Where I Cannot Follow

 

A four letter word, can I say it?

It haunts me,

She is always on my mind.

Her

Without I feel empty

Reduced to a phantom,

She gives me heart

A soul, meaning.

I want to tell her with every fibre of me.

Life left to never return

Never again will she hear

The four letter word.

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How Can I Go On

 

I’m waiting, wishing,

Sitting in a room of memories,

Seconds slowly pass, time`s pace is cruel.

My mind wanders

Thoughts of her haunting me once again

The ghosts of memory,

I shake

I don’t want these feelings

These thoughts anymore.

My mind tormented constantly.

Why can I not escape?

She has gone,

My mind will not yield

Refusing to let go.

She enters,

I am baffled yet elated

Yet she takes no notice of me,

Am I… a shadow?

A spectre of memory?

She was my forever.